The lost soul

There is so much uncertainty in the tides of life. But I have no clue,life awaited me this huge tsunami. I do not know in which phase and state of life I am in, what I am going through or where the horizon of reality and whole existence of my life is.
Yet days passes by contemplating the each and every minute details of life trying to figure out what exactly has happened and is happening.

Engulfed in the utter darkness of melancholia, different kinds of fear circulate in my veins. Even the slightest change in the accent and behavior of loved ones feels catastrophic. Either my inability to help them at the times of need or their inability for the same towards me,both shakes me to the core. All of sudden eruption of that irrational fear of death of loved ones keeps replaying the scenes of destruction and death in mind,making me feel much more miserable.

With each passing day, I find myself sinking more deeper into the depths of despair.

All around I can only sense fear,fear of almost everything. People, place, things,light, I have started fearing everything.

Yet,

One day,I’ll live
A life, I have envisaged
Making my way out of the blues,
I’ll shine through every Storm’s hues
Embracing the atrociousness of time,
Garnering my scattered shreds of shattered dreams,
One day I’ll ascend above all the melancholia
Rising above the gnawing hollowness,
With the compassion in me,
One day I’ll transfigure into the real me
Away from the intoxicating illusions,
An enlightened soul reaching at the top of humanity.

I Dare To Dream